So, today around 11:30 am, my mother in law calls to tell me that they are rushing my middle daughter, Holli, to the hospital because they think shes got appendicitis...obviously, I started freaking out and was thinking about renting a car tomorrow and driving through hail storm and brimstone with the snowstorm and all, just so that I could be by her side. I cant believe how terribly scared to death that I was.
Here I thought, because of what happened to their father 5 years ago, all the positive thinking that went through my mind when he was in the hospital was all for naught because he still ended up dying. I have to admit that most of the morning, I spent crying and praying to the Goddess, God and their father, asking my friends on Facebook to send her energies and pray for her as well....I was worried out of my damn mind, getting ready to pack a bag, and high tail it down to NJ to be with her.
My girls are my life and honestly, I think that my world would end if I lost them in any way shape or form...You can never imagine the thoughts that go through your mind when your child/spouse/boyfriend/girlfriend is in the hospital and you cant be with them...I was such a wreck that I spent the day holding her little necklace with a bear charm that I gave her for Yule and her blanket that she sleeps with...its been with me the majority of the day, not leaving my side, and as of 7:45 when I called down there, again, to speak to her, she was fine and dandy, running around and playing, but, still, as I sit here at 12:11 AM writing this blog, I'm still worried and as much as I was worried out of my mind, I honestly think that she had to go potty and was a bit constipated. Cause she was fine, literally, as they walked out of the hospital two hours after she got there and I have yet to get another phone call that they're taking her back. Which is really good. She had no vomiting, no diarrhea, no dehydration, no fever...like most of the symptoms of appendicitis...JUST the stomach cramps....they also ran tests for UTI's and shes perfectly fine. All of her tests came back 100% normal...I just think she was constipated.
BUT, it doesn't scare me any less...I don't like being away from my girls. And had my truck not have broken down New years weekend, they would be home, safe and sound already...and I would have known what was wrong with her just by looking at her. Every time they are down there, I get sick or something else (this time, its my legs and a chronic headache that hasn't gone away, last time in October, I believe that I got sick, and every other time they are down there, i get the sniffles or a cold, or a sore throat or laryngitis)....and they get sick as well...We just arent meant to be separated for this long...
And I thought about letting them stay all summer down there....not a chance, not after this.
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