so much is going on

So, since we moved life has been a bit on the chaotic side -

we moved

kim and her kids moved out so there was an adjustment period there after going from the 5 of us to the 9 of us then moving then going right back to the 5 of us again...

getting lilia on a daily school schedule and keeping her to it

finding a job - working for three weeks then ultimately leaving that job because i felt COMPLETELY irrevocably uncomfortable with the way things were run there (imma bartender)

job hunting, going on interview after interview...

keeping up with the house, the kids, and all thats in between...

ive been working out and on 1270(ish) calorie diet and an extreme workout regimen that includes going to the gym and jillian michaels' 30 day shred...ive lost 15 pounds so far. I feel great!

other then that, pretty much everything else is normal....except the fact that we're fighting again........badly...i cant keep up appearances for the sake of looking and sit here acting like everything's peachy. its not. i told dave yesterday that i want a separation...i cant take the fighting, the bickering, the arguing, the "at-each-others-throats" feelings...its just not kosher with me. it doesn't sit right. I cant handle it. So, i told him.

i feel oddly calm but slightly nervous...this will make us, or, break us...we'll see.

Hes going to try to go to Kentucky. he has a friend down there whos family owns a mine. i told him to be careful...