September 20, 2011

What is Wicca?

So, after deliberating on this for a few days, Ive decided to write about it and this is truly what Wicca is TO ME. If you ask 5 different Wiccans, you will more then very likely, get five different answers...That is the true beauty of Wicca. You have the liberty of truly believing what YOU want to believe. Wicca is needlessly scary to a lot people. I’ve been asked on several occasions " Well, isn't Wicca a form of Satanism? Doesn't *that* star you wear, mean Satanism?"... Well, first, the Star....no, it is not satanic in any way... If in fact you look UP the Satanic star, you'll find that its upside down with the bottom of that star being quite a bit longer then that of the star Pagans or Wiccans wear...OUR star has five EQUAL length points...The points of our star represent the five elements: Air, Fire, Water and Earth, plus Aether (or Spirit).... people who say these things are ignorant about what Wicca is or how they can bring magic into their lives. Second, "Wicca" was popularised in the 1950s and early 1960s by a Wiccan High Priest named Gerald Gardner, who at the time called it the "witch cult" and "witchcraft," and its adherents "the Wica". From the 1960s onward, the name of the religion was normalised to Wicca.... For hundreds of years before the Salem Witch Trials, people have been accused of being witches and tortured for their beliefs.......they've been hung, stretched, or tortured in some other forms...Yes, *SOME* have been needlessly burned and for no reason...Even today, witches are being killed in Haiti, being falsely accused of causing the cholera epidemic. Whenever people are afraid, they can fall back on old hatreds. And with Wicca, there is no need to be afraid. It’s always easy to criticize what you don’t understand. Wicca is about love, kindness, and energy. And in all roads in life, there are two paths you can choose. Wicca believes in the path of love and light – not in the path of darkness and hate.Wicca is a very peaceful, harmonious and balanced way of thinking... we don't worship Satan or the devil because we don't believe in it. We believe that the earth is a mother to us all and we should honor and respect her and live a harmonious life. We don't own the earth but we are part of it... We respect life above all. We believe in a Goddess AND a God. Both EQUALLY...neither is above the other. They are in us, around us, above us and below us on the earth, beneath our feet, in the air we breathe and the sun that beats down on us...in the rain and snow, and all the elements around us. They are the grass, the clouds, the dirt and the trees...They are in us, our bodies, we are them... As a rule, you’ll find Wiccans don’t spend much time debating. We’d rather focus on positive energies and magic in our daily lives and not let the negative energy in. We are peaceful folk.We never try to “convert” someone to Wicca. All gentle people are welcome and take what is meaningful to them and leave what is not. We use spells and drawing energies and prayer...yes, prayer. We dance, we sing, we have celebrations of LIFE, of love, of kindness. We tend to be vegans, "tree huggers", people that love the earth and her beauty. We are recyclers, "do gooders" in some ways...Wicca spells are powerful. But if you just trust in yourself and in the pure and innocent power of the Universe, you will be safe. Spells are like tools. We have lots of tools we use, alot like alot of churches and religions...we use holy water, salt, candles and incense, we use music to worship and meditation to ground us...Anything can be a tool...You can use a tool to build a home, bake a loaf of bread, or put together a children’s toy. You can also use these same tools to destroy and uproot. It’s a matter of your personal sense of morality and ethics. Wicca is the path to power. You must make the choice to use it responsibly. Our medicines that we have today are based on the herbs and concoctions that many witches used back in the day to heal and make someone better. Aromatherapy is also another way that witches used to heal. Reiki is another. We use divination and prayer to get answers much like other religions... Like many Catholics venerate Mary, Hindus acknowledge the Divine Shakti, and Jews pray to the Shechina, and Christians worship Jesus Christ, Wicca acknowledges the power and magic of the Goddess and God, some concentrating more on the Goddess and some concentrating on both, still others, the male half, the God. In Wicca, men and women balance different energies. Men and Women are equal in the Wiccan religion, even in Paganism. When you see a coven, there is very often a High Priest and High Priestess, both equally do things in their covens, circles, rituals and groups. I am hoping that anyone not familiar with it, if they have questions, they will research it more instead of instantly just assuming that Wicca is just "a form of Satanism." Again, this is MY Belief...Like I said, if you ask 5 Wiccans a question, you more then likely WILL get 5 different answers.

Alots been going on...

After my email to my husband a couple of months ago and him ignoring it like always...I kicked him out....there were a lot more issues then that email and I just couldn't take it anymore....He invaded my privacy on a consistent basis...We NEVER spoke. Ever. It was like living with a mime...And when we DID speak, it was to fight about shit. Or, him to say something mean, negative, angry, wrong or prejudiced/racist(towards other people)...I couldn't handle it. He did EVERYTHING that the email I wrote to him predicted....in addition to the abuse I endured from him, he tore my heart out of my chest, ripped it apart in his hands into little bitty teeny tiny pieces and threw it on the ground, stomped up and down on it a few thousand times, picked it back up and threw it in the trash. I am damaged, broken, heartbroken and just totally cold walled. The wall has gone up around my heart and its going to take a lot to heal me this time.... The last year has been hell on my psyche, my emotions, my heart and my PTSD...Ive been having a lot more triggers lately due to everything he put me through and I'm having a hard time with it... The only thing that's keeping me sane is my kids and the fact that I got a job for the first time since last year that I had to quit because of the ex...Before THAT was 2001. So, I'm proud of myself at that moment. I seem to really be getting it. And I'm glad that I have the income that's going to be coming in on a regular basis...Its waiting tables at a Mexican Grille and I'm excited because I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE Mexican food....as long as its not spicy................but, i had to quit because i realized that my body just couldnt handle waiting tables anymore...i was in SO much pain, i woke up one morning, barely being able to move and feeling SO terrible i couldnt take it... I had to give my dog away because of the job....Had my ex not fucked up and gotten himself tossed out again, and I wouldn't have gotten the job, I would have had time for her and I wouldn't have had to leave her....However, my first night of work, I came home and she had completely ripped through my bathroom door and ripped off one of the moulding panels from around the door....COMPLETELY RIPPED A HOLE THROUGH THE DOOR.....because I left her alone....I couldn't handle that.... She left the next morning. She went to a wonderful family with three little kids and a yard and a husband and all that....They said to keep their number and if I wanted to ever come see her, I could....I was crying really hard when I was saying goodbye to her. I adored and loved her...I refused to take her to the pound so I worked practically all night to find her a HOME....and i did. Overall, things have been good...the girls went to NJ to see the family again over the summer, and I was the homebody that I have turned into............. I find that the older I get, the more I want to stay home and have people come HERE and cook a nice meal or something..........Im SO passed the "going OUT and partying" phase of my life...and I cant believe the amount of money I used to spend doing it... i lost the internet for about 2 weeks (which after that, i will NEVER loose it again....) Still don't have cable but its alright because ill have it eventually and i can watch stuff online if i really want to...I'm just glad to be back online. Dave is still gone, our courtdate for our divorce is October 17th and ive decided to move back in NJ in June...I'm incredibly homesick and I want to go home.