So, today as I'm sitting here thinking about the last few years, it dawns on me that my heart has become jaded and I've become what ive wanted to avoid....cold....bitchy....jaded almost. So, I make the vow today, as of December 17th 2009 that I will become the kind hearted loving caring woman that I was before. I dont like being cold, or a bitch. I have been looking at my affirmations everyday but some how they dont seem to be working. I need to start meditating hard core again. Im not cold towards my kids at all or towards my husband but towards other people. And I dont know why or how it happened. I know alot has happened since Cameron passed away but that doesnt mean that I should become this cold hearted bitch. I dont like it and its not me.
So, I make this vow that i will become the person that I was before...loving, kind hearted and caring towards other people. Im going to try to "pay it forward" and be nice but not a push over or naive.
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