As I sit here remembering yesterday, after just getting back from running to the post office, I am still in shock, staring at the brand new 2010 Ford Focus that is sitting in my spot in the parking lot. I still cant believe its mine, and that I was approved for a loan and drove off the lot 2 hours after getting there yesterday in a brand SPANKING new (to me its new, its preowned with only 19,000 miles on it) car.
Today, I FEEL my age....And its not a bad thing. Until recently, I didnt feel like an "adult" truly because when I bought my truck, I walked into the dealership and handed them a check for $24,419.97. No loans, no fuss no muss...When I got notice that I was approved yesterday, and I walked into the dealership with kids and husband in tow, I was (mildly) thinking that it was a farce, not true and that it wouldnt be legit...
I was wrong.
And I couldn't be happier....The fact that having this car, paying it every month, and paying it off will INCREDIBLY be fantastic for my credit, is going to be amazing...I finally FEEL like a grown up....I honestly dont know why its taken me this long to....had I gotten this loan YEARS ago, I more then likely would have let it get repossessed, more then likely wouldn't have cared............But now that Ive gone through the stuff that I have, and lost my truck for three months due to technical break down and needing to get repaired, Ive realized how important it is to have a reliable car and how important paying bills are.
When I was with my ex-husband Michael, he took care of the bills and he had a car repossessed shortly after we got together. At the time, it didn't dawn on me that it would affect his credit. I also had no idea that the many credit cards that he had me get in my name would damage my credit so bad when he didn't pay them that Id be in a financial area of my life that prohibited me from getting loans for things like plastic surgery, a house and even a car.
Here I am, 34 years old and I have always felt like I was "playing house" and that at any moment, my mother was going to walk in, tell me how worthless I was and take over the house hold as she always did.
I can honestly say that after yesterday, I now feel like I AM the woman of the house and feel grown up.
Even after being divorced, widowed, married again, moving 300 miles from my friends and family, going to school and all the stuff that Ive been through hasnt made me feel like one...........getting approved for the loan and driving off the lot with a BRAND NEW (i.e. 2010) car did...
Isnt that funny?
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