February 15, 2011

IM NOT AFRAID.

So, after some thought, observation and other things, I have noticed that all of the supoort and belief in people and all that that Ive given of myself, people cant seem to reciprocate. I am seriously fucking tired of being walked on, taken advantage of and the like....so, from now on, NO MORE FREE ANYTHING.....no more free hair, no more free make up, no more of my "free" time....If IM not getting anything out of something, I wont do it. I dont go out anymore to get drunk, its stupid. When I give freely, i get nothing in return. So, Im done doing that. At the urgency of a very good friend of mine (thank you Nikki), i will NO LONGER BE OFFERING MY SERVICES FOR FREE. I will no longer give of anything of myself for free....because after all that ive done, I honestly feel like I have been completely taken advantage of. This is my business. It will be what eventually support my family and myself because I dont want to struggle on what I do get a month....I have alot to offer this world and I honestly feel like I am not getting full advantages to it.

Some people may not like this but I dont give a shit anymore. I am tired of being the kind sweet generous person, to afraid to say No because it might "get me exposure." fuck that. Ive done enough shit to "get me exposure" and it hasnt. Im tired of sitting around waiting for shit to come to me..........From now on, I guess if i MUST be cut throat, I will be. Im tired of not feeling like I exist in this world. Im tired of "being ignored" and being made to feel like I am worthless and have nothing to offer, and the stuff that i DO have to offer, I get asked to do shit for free.

Im done....If you dont like it, Get Bent and delete me. Im done being taken advantage of. Its time for the Bad Ass Bitch to come back again because SHE got more accomplished in this life then the "nice" me did and has....

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

(Intro)

Yeah, It's been a ride...
I guess I had to go to that place to get to this one
Now some of you might still be in that place
If you're trying to get out, just follow me
I'll get you there

(Verse 1)

You can try and read my lyrics off of this paper before I lay 'em
But you won't take this thing out these words before I say 'em
Cause ain't no way I'm let you stop me from causing mayhem
When I say 'em or do something I do it, I don't give a damn
What you think, I'm doing this for me, so fuck the world
Feed it beans, it's gassed up, if a thing's stopping me
I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony
No if ands or buts don't try to ask him why or how can he
From Infinite down to the last Relapse album he's still shit'n
Whether he's on salary, paid hourly
Until he bows out or he shit's his bowels out of him
Whichever comes first, for better or worse
He's married to the game, like a fuck you for christmas
His gift is a curse, forget the earth he's got the urge
To pull his dick from the dirt and fuck the universe

(Hook)

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

(Verse 2)
Ok quit playin' with the scissors and shit, and cut the crap
I shouldn't have to rhyme these words in the rhythm for you to know it's a rap
You said you was king, you lied through your teeth
For that fuck your fillings, instead of getting crowned you're getting capped
And to the fans, I'll never let you down again, I'm back
I promise to never go back on that promise, in fact
Let's be honest, that last Relapse CD was "ehhhh"
Perhaps I ran them accents into the ground

Relax, I ain't going back to that now
All I'm tryna say is get back, click-clack BLAOW
Cause I ain't playin' around
There's a game called circle and I don't know how
I'm way too up to back down
But I think I'm still tryna figure this crap out
Thought I had it mapped out but I guess I didn't
This fucking black cloud still follow's me around
But it's time to exercise these demons
These motherfuckers are doing jumping jacks now!

(Hook)

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

(Bridge)

And I just can't keep living this way
So starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, Imma face my demons
I'm manning up, Imma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now

(Verse 3)

It was my decision to get clean, I did it for me
Admittedly I probably did it subliminally for you
So I could come back a brand new me, you helped see me through
And don't even realise what you did, believe me you
I been through the ringer, but they can do little to the middle finger
I think I got a tear in my eye, I feel like the king of
My world, haters can make like bees with no stingers, and drop dead
No more beef flingers, no more drama from now on, I promise
To focus soley on handling my responsibility's as a father
So I solemnly swear to always treat this roof like my daughters and raise it
You couldn't lift a single shingle on it
Cause the way I feel, I'm strong enough to go to the club
Or the corner pub and lift the whole liquor counter up
Cause I'm raising the bar, I shoot for the moon
But I'm too busy gazing at stars, I feel amazing and

(Hook)

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

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